I need a sign…!

It’s been a few days since I’ve been waiting for a sign. Sometimes, not understanding yourself or not knowing what you want is more complicated then when no one understands you. Because at that time, you are sure about your own self! When things get bizarre, you want an indication from other(s) for validation about what you want to do/believe.

I was just thinking about the whole scenario yesterday morning, and I remembered a tale from childhood. In short, the story was about a pious man who was drowning but he had the belief that God will save him and kept praying for that. He saw a wooden log with whose help he float and save himself. But he let go of it thinking that his God will save him rather then a wooden object. After that, his friend came to save him but he refused any help from them. Then came a ship for his rescue but he didn’t let them help him saying that his faith in God is more then his faith in humans. And thereby, he would rather wait for His help then His creations. This went on until he finally drowned and died. When presented before the Almighty he complained that He didn’t save him and let His faithful die. God replied that, “I love you dearly and would never leave anybody alone no matter what trials or hardships they encounter. But you’ve acted very unwisely! Three times you prayed for my help and three times I sent someone to help you. Each time you foolishly refused the help I sent!”

And writing this, I am wondering if an absence of a sign is a sign in itself. Getting more complicated :S:S